Perhaps, a brighter perspective.

I've officially alienated myself. Somehow, it feels as if I'm right here, living in my little bubble again. That was how I used to be. Shy and quiet. Afraid of judgements and a self-esteem so low that even saying hello to a person makes me pee in my pants. Okay, maybe not that drastic. But yes, that is how I was. A long, long time ago. A shy little girl. Keyword: LITTLE.

I've then grown into a much more confident person. Friendly, cheerful, loud and crazy! I never wanted to go back to being the shy-and-quiet person I was. I didn't want to clam up in my shell again.

Life. Life's a funny thing. Pretty much every(single)thing has to be done in moderation. Say, you should appreciate every thing and person in your life, but at the same time, you shouldn't get too attached to them. Otherwise, once you're diverted from all the things and people you love, it's going to be tough. Really, really tough. But what options are we left with? :( Life is so short, and we can never know what to expect of tomorrow.

Sometimes, I think I should stop thinking too much. STARTING... now! ;)

Currently. I have the social life of a slug. Reverted to the anti-social version of me. It sucks. But I have to. I need this. I just hope this isn't permanent.

I shall abstain from this melancholy, before it's too late.

Just a warning sign. If I've not been talking much to you, or I've been mean to you, or I've not been my usual self to you, I AM NOT SORRY ABOUT IT. Yes, you read it right the first time.

Note-to-self;

I SHOULD be more cheerful.

I NEED TO smile more.

I HAVE TO laugh more.

I OUGHT TO be more confident.

I MUST be determined.

I MUST be more optimistic.

I MUST have faith.

I MUST BELIEVE in myself again.

x

Spectacular!

Woke up at 12pm today, well it has been my
holiday routine, doubtless, look at me,
officially a panda in the house :( yikes.
Texted Adli to wish him goodluck for his Undang test,
but i was lateeee, like i said, 12am.
Sadly, he failed the test, awwww.
Don't worry dude, you'll do well in the next one.
All the best ;)

Sooo then, we texted for a while.
Meanwhile, i was flipping the channels on Astro.
So many channels but nothing suits me?
Then, i came to Nickelodean, lame right?
Only SpongebobSquarePants is awesome in that channel.
But, there was a movie on, Spectacular!
Why yes, it was spectacular!
it's actually quite an old movie,
cuz i missed it the first time it came out.
Sooo, i was watching it. No regrets :)
I started drooling uncontrollably when Nikko,
the main actor in the movie started with moves,
*screams like a diehard fan*
PLUS, his smile is just oh-so AWESOME!

Real name : Nolan Gerard Funk ♥

Aged, Twenty-Four.

Look at his hair! :O

He looks utterly adorable and COLD here :D

Officially ♥ him, xoxoxoxoxo!

didn't mean to disappoint you.

No more 'what the ikan'
sorrryyy my lovely readers.
yeahh, i know, and again, lama tak update kan?
hahahaha. sorryyy, especially to those who
nagged me to update my blog :P whoaps.

sooooo, what should i talk about?
hmmm, the carnival?
one thing's for sure, for those of
you who i've invited but couldn't make it,
LUCKY YOU :D ahahaha.
well, it's not that it was boring or what,
it was just that the carnival atmosphere
was NOT THERE - - Lol.
Still, credits to Wan Yee for all her effort
in organising this carnival.
Wan yee, u're stress-free now (: yayyy!

By the way, laughter is best medicine right?
for those who know me, you know i love to laugh.
and i'll have to admit that my laughing point is rather LOW!
However, there are people who laugh even more than i do.

during assembly today, there was a Cuti2 Msia dance
performed by Khatheja and some other girls.
the dance wasn't really that funny until there
was this so called 'kena rasuk' move. Hahhh!
i wasn't laughing actually, then i heard
Xin Hui saying 'waaa, Miss Hor laugh until so kua zhang'
translation with simple words : Miss Hor laughed until CRAZY.

so, i turned to ms hor, and i bursted into laughter. LOL.
even Pn Rogayah was laughing insanely, sampai air mata pun keluar.
HILARIOUS, i tell you. Guess who started laughing then?
ME! ME! ME! what was i laughing about?
MISS HOR AND PN ROGAYAH! Extremely Funnnyyyyyyyy! :)
cant believe that my english and chemistry teacher
could laugh soooo much over a dance move. the Zombie move.
hahahahah! (: (:



Homework, still undone D:

Oh-oh.

It's school again, in 15 hours!

yeah, homework, activities, exams, tuition,

Here We Go Again D:

And this also means

LESS net, no blog updates ):

LESS text messaging

LESS movies

LESS outings

LESS television

LESS gossiping, HA!

one word, depression.

Oh yea, not to forget,

how can i forget - -

Hellooooo SPM 2o1o.

Gotta work my butt off,

Hell yeah, u heard me.

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS !

(:

Will miss all the sayangs

i've been texting with this

freaking awesome holiday.

And, definitely gonna miss all

the new friends i've made with [:

Old darlings !

IT'S BACK TO SOME FUNNNN !

serious heart contact.

♥ doopdoop.
had history tuition, this morning.
L-A-Z-Y , i hate morning tuition !
i may be fresh, but hello, the brain's not working lah.
Sheeshhh ]: one word can actually make me high - -
Awesomeness? i don't think so. Lmao.
doopdoop rate : FAST.

attended a Malay wedding this morning,
well, yeshh, as usual, the food was awesome.
No bunga telurs though, hahaha. pelik pelik.
doopdoop rate : Normal.

Then, went to pavillion with family.
to see the xmas decos. sweeeeeeeeeeet ~
and the xmas songs? don't you love em? (:
many pics taken. hahhh xD
and then... i bumped into HanCheeEnn.
Serious heart conttactttt ♥ LoveyDoveyyy.
we gotta hang out one dayy. always tak berjaya. ishish.
doopdoop rate : FAST.

when going back, i passed somewhere..
u don't have to know where =x
and i had an utterly awkward feeling. Curiosity, Anxiety.
u don't have to know what =x
then, i went back home to check, asap.
u don't have to know how =x
And YES! i was right! my feelings were, err, RIGHT!
doopdoop rate : Absolutely, exceptionally FAST.

lalalala, aku rindu manyak olang oit ):
eunice . michelle . xinlei . bowie . meikee . yus .
chee enn (already) . yiwei . tengteng . joey . inez .
sayangs from kc . afiq . my class . tuition sweeties .
Everyyyoneeeeee ? ♥

btw, sorry, my mind will be closed until further notice.
no blog updates tomorrow. oopsie. [:

p/s : Bowieeee ! am counting down !
one week to gooooooooo :P xoxo.

♥

left without words.

s0bs. t0m0rr0w will be the last day
i get t0 g0 crazy with that craaaazy gang.
Awwww ): im sad, seri0usly..
Well, im n0t w0rried ab0ut anything else,
just h0pe t0 see them again next year..
it'll t0tally suck if cant tuition on the same day with them lah.

Plus, im als0 hoping for the impossible to become possible.
yikes ;P. what am i saying? hahahaha.
it's f0r me t0 kn0w, and f0r y0u t0 find out..

(;

ily, a lot !
ntg is decreasing..

im s0 addicted to my blog song [ updated ]
mmmm, wh-wh-what chu sayyyy~

talking thuuursday.

15 oct o9 TalkingThursdayy.

nice topic kan? hahahaha.
Well, i enjoyed yesterday !
Why?

go makan2 with joey and mankay.

they said they wanna go cr,

so i decided to teman enn in school.

When enn backed, i realised

the paper that i had to

photostat was with mankay !

snapp ! so, i speeded off to

find j0ey and mankay.

Thank God i found them (: phew.

I told them,

After finish drink then i balik..

but who knew we were

talking

talking

talking

and

talkingggg...

until it was already 3.40 ! OMG !

im dead =x

it was really fun talking to them !

talking about the past and the present.

just love it (:

Thereforeeeeeeee,

thanks mankay and j0ey

for making my day. Loves.

mankay (;

j0ey (;

xoxo `

we should do this more often.

how could i not know?

liking ≠ loving. ♥

finally, i woke up to realise

that there's a huge difference

in those two words.

why didn't i notice it earlier?

Apparently,

i made a even HUGER

mistake due to those two words.

Now, I'm awake !

Had no school both, yesterday and today. wyeeeee.

But, school's as usual again, tomorrow. Ugh ~

Anyways, nothing to do at home.

no one to text with xD. ky had school pulak. yer ):

bored, bored and bored !

went youtube to listen some songs though.

played itu kamu by estranged again and again.

I miss that song oh-so-much. so many sweet memories

with nisha. i miss her, so much ! D:

Good Luckkk to those PMR candidates !

• face the war with courage yah xD.

In serious need of anti virus software now !

SOMEONE HELP ME !

if u have the cd at home,

please be a kind human and lend it to me.

my facebook kaput dy lah !

it took me almost an hour to start the page =x yikes.

HelpMe,Please.

toodles !

ughh.

i want my life back. =x
haa ! what an awkward sentence.
it's not even like im about to lose my
PRECIOUS life or something.
Ohh well, im just so confuse.
still confused.

)=

eunice texted me last night.
it made me smile, finally !
i've been so emotionless lately.
ish2. why o why ~
glad i told eunice everything, and i mean
EVERYTHING. xD.

♥ eunice ! thanks for the absolutely great advices !

Tiring giler lah at school T.T
i wanna be that sleeping piggy again lah !
wth ~! D:

Sighs, s0 gonna g0 crazy with my ph0ne.
i typed a super, duper long msg and *p0of*
it g0es missing ! ): and i have to re-type it all overrrrrrr agaaaaaiiinnnn.
Mommyyyy ! i want a new ph0ne which can put tw0 sim cards lah! xD. LOL. can i?

Wheee, baru siap my longlonglong-time-din-do punya sej n0ta.
YESHYESH ! but, n0w hav t0 rush back my chem and bi0 n0te.
wth lah ! u tau ape tu LAZY tak? Ugghhhhhhhh D: sedihnyerrr.

Anyways, g0tta add an0ther friend on my sept-bday-list xD.
♥ happpyyyy birthdayyyy, wongpuikei ! ^^

now, i have a thousand of question marks on my head lah.
someone, help me, please ! D:

3 words .

NoNoNo, not i love you (=
hahaha. Be patient, wait til i finish this post.

Well, receieved a text from joyee.
seriously one msg which made me laugh for a sec.

the msg...

GALS!!! GOOD NEWS 4 all form 4 students.
SPM has been cancelled next year!

To confirm, kindly log on to


www.janganmimpi_n_start2study.com.my

HAHAHAHA !
funny right ? such a sick msg xD.
But i did forward it ^^ heeeee !

Anyways, i don't know why..
now i'm having such a MIXTURE of feelings.
Its so weird --" i could barf ! rofl. not so scary lah ! chill.


the 3 words are : LOL =D.

crazy dayyy.

updating my blog.
FINALLY. xD.
Ooops.

Had been so lazy.
LAZY to online.
yea ! ironic huh?
even yi ling got shocked when
i said this. LaughOutLoud. ((:
Kinda tired now.
SUPPOSED to be sleeping eyh.

my fingers are super tired now.
After typing the tag-blog..
And also texting ky the whole day.
WHOLE DAY. xD.
almost 100++ sms eyh.
That's why i'm almost br0ke now. alamak.
Someone save me -.-
OhhhhPleaseeeeeeeeeee ~~

Gotta wake up EARLY in the morning tomorrow.
wHo ? MEEEEEE )):
wHy ? Play bAskEtbaLl.
WhEre ? ky + enn 's house there.
WiTh ? ky and enn
hOw ? use bAskEtbaLL xD. (wuliao)


gotta sleep n0w.
toodles my lovely readers !

ps/ xinlei !
i'll p0st tht blog so0n
[hope u knw wht im talking abt]

ps again/ EUNICE !
imissyou T.T where are y0u? )):

updating my status.

half dead to officially dead .
though, i did SURVIVE my physics + sejarah
test which was on the same day.
i just couldnt believ that i passed my sejarah
test so flowingly... yet not-so-flowingly for physics.
OhhhMannnn ` ));
i h0pe i stil can get good results lah.

sengaja wanna update blog actually.
just to make waipeng happy.
hahahaha (: Did i ??? ^^

THREE more days of exam
and its over ! unfortunately,
i'm stil stuck with
BIO mitosis, meiosis, chromosome, plasma membrane,
ADD MATHS inverse function, logarithms,
MATHS 4x2=6 ar [ i know its wrong ] dot dot dot
and LOADS more. Ohmannn ` it's like it never ends.
Where's the full stop to this?? -.-

still planning for my holidays.
anyone care for a movie with me? ^^



s l e e p y .

aiy0ks.

Got my PURPLE book today.
Wondering what's that? Lols.
It's . . . My REPORT CARD.
wheeeeeeeeee !~ [ what a fake cheer ]
My results was seriously the ugliest ever !
Sighs. Gotta work harder for midterm. HAVE TO :D

but the weird thing is,
i thought i'll lose my phone
or maybe the net will be cut off
and my mom will nag at me 24/7
THANKFULLY, she said i did my best.
Heeeeee (: i'm the happiest human in this earth. Krazyyy =\
But no matter what,
I'll do better next time. Sorry m0mmy !

oh and, today's assembly was WEIRD.
seriously weird. The drama done by 4akikians wasn't that bad.
the weird thing that really annoyed me was...
The school's bringing CANNINGS back to school !
n i mean bringing it to SECONDARY school. My poor palm xD.
And, there'll be DETENTION class `
i was seri0usly shocked because since when
my school's so MODERNIZED... By who? Lols.
That pink panther? or maybe bumble bee? Haaa.

I've already wished her a happy bday
but today's officially her bday... so...
Again, HappyBirthdayyy HauEnggg (: Lols.

Finally.

yea. you heard me.
FINALLY....
what did i do huh?
blog again of course.
I've been really lethargic lately.
still don't know my reason?
hahaha. it actually means LAZY.
now you get it ( :


Actually i've got gazzilion things to say BUT... its too personal.
HAAA ! im serious ya. Told my sayangs about it though. GRINS.
Anyways, did anyone realise how fast time's flying?
it's already the 29th ! i mean w0ah ! alm0st one m0nth over?
and it's already the f0urth day of cny ? WOW ;D
but, did anyone else realise i sound so AWKWARD...
why the hell am i crapping?
well actually...
I'M FRIGGIN BORED right now.
finally g0t t0 install msn in laptop BUT couldnt text
my dear dear sayangs. NO CREDIT lah ! Damn It ) :
not only my phone credit-less wo, mom's too, sis's too.
dad's low -.- What coincidence right ?

i am so sad cuz im missing my sayangs ♥

*skype sound*
YiLing!!!!! ( :
AHHHHHH.
im s0 happy. TrustMe. IWas ^^
Still Far Apart Though. Gurl, IMissYou.

Oh well,
chatting with her right now..
lost my bored0m dy. heees.

BUT...
i still miss my sayangs
[ ♥ ]
eunice.
karyan.
chee enn.
xinlei.

catch me ♥

got up late again xP

watched a movie called blind dating. go check it out weyh.
The movie's nice and seriously funny! it'll surely tickle your funny bone (no kidding)
the guy's such a hottie ! u won't want to get your precious eyes off him !
it's truue. i see no lie ; speak no lie ; hear no lie (=
the actor is chris pine. you might know him from just my luck.

addicted to pet society AGAIN =\
that game's really fun !! gossssh `
someone please i BEG you.. stop me from
playing that game again...
even the song is ADDICTIVE weyh.

i just realised somthing about xinlei babeeey ;
it's really nice to know..
but i'm not gonna mention here.. *evils

for jerks out there ; HELL YEAHH !

so what?
i’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And
I need you. not !
And guess what?
I’m having more fun.
YAY ME (=