when you least expect it..

Apologies for the late update, AGAIN.
I gotta admit, many things happened,
AND I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.
they're stuck in my mind, for too loooong!
and i mean it, I cant stand it anymore.


22nd March 2o1o.
I always thought if you wanted something
so much, just be optimist and believe that
that's the thing you really want,
you will eventually get it.
But why didn't that happen to me?
It has always been my dream to become the school player,
for the sport i love most, basketball.
a dream i always worked hard for.
but i just didn't achieve it.


I guess things do happen when you least expect it.
and sadly, the consequences are,
unacceptable..
unpredictable..
and worstly, unforgettable..
it wouldn't be that hard to forget if those harsh
words didn't come out from my basketball coach's mouth.
How could one be so evil? so heartless? so inhuman?
why should such people exist?
i don't wanna hate someone so much,
but the scar is still in me. it's horrible.

Actually, according to date,
it's obvious that this thing happened quite looong ago.
but, honestly, whenever i step foot on the basketball court,
these awful thoughts come rushing to me, and haunts me.
i want to scream, because i couldnt stand it. ):
I miss the game, i miss the passion, i miss the fun.



still trying my best to chill.